a pretty flower in a vase I made.

a closeup of a bowl-vase I made. I love how the glaze turned out. :0)

Jenni's blog style

so here's a blog in jenni's style of writing:

he chose to serve. he chose to leave and put himself in danger. he chose to defend america and stand up to terrorism in a foreign land. i am proud of him. but also nervous. anytime I get a phone call at home I wonder if its bad news. for now he is safe but monday he lost a friend. his friend was out on maneuvers and was shot in the head. he died. pray for him and his family. but he also tells stories of miracles. he says everytime they go out he sees God looking over them. they have walked through ambushes without even being shot at. the Lord has protected. the Lord is in control even when it feels He's not. the war is real. they are real men and women that are dying. they are not just numbers. they are family. husbands. daughters. brothers. mothers. fathers. they are people.

Friends Everywhere

I had a good weekend. Did alot of hanging with friends and reading of Harry Potter. I read slow so I am only a few hundred pages in. Unlike Anne who finished it in one day. My brain doesn't compute fast enough to read fast. Anyway. Was a good weekend. Will and Jenni were in town so I saw them at dinner Saturday at Rudy's BBQ with a herd of other friends. We all sat there for hours talking and stuff and then a smaller bunch of us made our way over to Mozarts where I enjoyed a cookie and milk. Some of my friends tease me about drinking milk but I really don't drink it that often - maybe a glass a week or so. I do eat cheese and yogurt so I am getting my dairy. And hopfully it will give me strong bones.

Liz and Kristina leave in 3 weeks so I am sad about that but they seem kindof excited and I am hoping its a majorly fun and exciting adventure for them full of knights with swords, horses, lions, chariots and rice.

And I heard from Garrett and Brenna today. I thought they had dropped off the face of the earth and was getting worried. Sounds like they are ok though. Brenna is recovering from knee surgery so that didn't sound too fun. And Cleo (dog) is sick and seems like he might die soon so thats really sad. But it sounds like work and all is going well.

Rachel (sister) gets married in just over two weeks. crazy. I tried on my dress yesterday. It looks great. Very pretty pink. And although I can't breathe in it I don't look too bad so thats good. I all of a sudden had this fear I will faint at the wedding b/c I can't breathe. That would be bad. I'll try to avoid that.

Well, I know I haven't really said much in this post. Nothing deep or insightful or anything. My my brain isn't really working today so thats about all I can muster up post wise. I need to make sure I get to bed at a desent hour tonight. No more staying up late with the Browns. :0)

Life as it has progressed

Well, haven't blogged in a while. I think because I have been having a variety of emotions/thoughts and don't feel like addressing them - esp. in a forum such as this where who knows who will be reading them. Its kindof a creepy thought ya know.

I am doing fine. Although I keep telling myself that and wonder if I am not ok but just trying to make myself believe I am. I had a fun filled 4th of July weekend with friends. Parties, a sleepover, pizza eating, laughing, and generally a good time. Wore myself out but it was fun. I've been butt tired all week but I should recover in a week or so.

My good friends Will and Jenni moved to Houston wednesday. I am sad but it hasn't totally hit me yet. Although I don't feel quite as safe in Austin anymore - Will has always been one who I would count on to rescue me and protect me from bad guys (robbers, rapists, etc - real bad guys). There are other guys still in Austin who in the situation I am sure would protect me - even a guy a couple blocks away that has a shotgun - but Will has always been here and that made me feel safer. Kindof like spiderman.

I am also really going to miss hanging with Jenni and all her talents and interests. She taught me how to grow things and inspired me to learn to sew and likes art and photography and always gave me honest critiquing and advice when I needed it. She did leave without really teaching me how to do my makeup but I still don't really like makeup so maybe its best I don't know how. She's also one of my only other friends who really likes photography and is a pretty artsy photographer. Not one of those artsy photographers who takes pictures of a pile of dirt and everyone oohs and ahhs over it and calls it art when its still just a junk of dirt. I am not really into those people.

So, I've had good times lately and I've had loss also and am still processing all that. I am about to have more loss soon too so maybe I'll just bottle up the loss and lose it all at once - which will be around the same time my sister is getting married and i'll be standing by myself in a room of married people waiting to catch the bouquet and lamenting that I am almost 30 and so very single. Maybe I should lose it at another time. :0) No really. I am fine. Going to go see Brad Pitt on the big screen tonight. That should cheer me up.

-m