Life as it has progressed
Well, haven't blogged in a while. I think because I have been having a variety of emotions/thoughts and don't feel like addressing them - esp. in a forum such as this where who knows who will be reading them. Its kindof a creepy thought ya know.
I am doing fine. Although I keep telling myself that and wonder if I am not ok but just trying to make myself believe I am. I had a fun filled 4th of July weekend with friends. Parties, a sleepover, pizza eating, laughing, and generally a good time. Wore myself out but it was fun. I've been butt tired all week but I should recover in a week or so.
My good friends Will and Jenni moved to Houston wednesday. I am sad but it hasn't totally hit me yet. Although I don't feel quite as safe in Austin anymore - Will has always been one who I would count on to rescue me and protect me from bad guys (robbers, rapists, etc - real bad guys). There are other guys still in Austin who in the situation I am sure would protect me - even a guy a couple blocks away that has a shotgun - but Will has always been here and that made me feel safer. Kindof like spiderman.
I am also really going to miss hanging with Jenni and all her talents and interests. She taught me how to grow things and inspired me to learn to sew and likes art and photography and always gave me honest critiquing and advice when I needed it. She did leave without really teaching me how to do my makeup but I still don't really like makeup so maybe its best I don't know how. She's also one of my only other friends who really likes photography and is a pretty artsy photographer. Not one of those artsy photographers who takes pictures of a pile of dirt and everyone oohs and ahhs over it and calls it art when its still just a junk of dirt. I am not really into those people.
So, I've had good times lately and I've had loss also and am still processing all that. I am about to have more loss soon too so maybe I'll just bottle up the loss and lose it all at once - which will be around the same time my sister is getting married and i'll be standing by myself in a room of married people waiting to catch the bouquet and lamenting that I am almost 30 and so very single. Maybe I should lose it at another time. :0) No really. I am fine. Going to go see Brad Pitt on the big screen tonight. That should cheer me up.
-m
I am doing fine. Although I keep telling myself that and wonder if I am not ok but just trying to make myself believe I am. I had a fun filled 4th of July weekend with friends. Parties, a sleepover, pizza eating, laughing, and generally a good time. Wore myself out but it was fun. I've been butt tired all week but I should recover in a week or so.
My good friends Will and Jenni moved to Houston wednesday. I am sad but it hasn't totally hit me yet. Although I don't feel quite as safe in Austin anymore - Will has always been one who I would count on to rescue me and protect me from bad guys (robbers, rapists, etc - real bad guys). There are other guys still in Austin who in the situation I am sure would protect me - even a guy a couple blocks away that has a shotgun - but Will has always been here and that made me feel safer. Kindof like spiderman.
I am also really going to miss hanging with Jenni and all her talents and interests. She taught me how to grow things and inspired me to learn to sew and likes art and photography and always gave me honest critiquing and advice when I needed it. She did leave without really teaching me how to do my makeup but I still don't really like makeup so maybe its best I don't know how. She's also one of my only other friends who really likes photography and is a pretty artsy photographer. Not one of those artsy photographers who takes pictures of a pile of dirt and everyone oohs and ahhs over it and calls it art when its still just a junk of dirt. I am not really into those people.
So, I've had good times lately and I've had loss also and am still processing all that. I am about to have more loss soon too so maybe I'll just bottle up the loss and lose it all at once - which will be around the same time my sister is getting married and i'll be standing by myself in a room of married people waiting to catch the bouquet and lamenting that I am almost 30 and so very single. Maybe I should lose it at another time. :0) No really. I am fine. Going to go see Brad Pitt on the big screen tonight. That should cheer me up.
-m
posted by michele @ 11:56 AM
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