friend

i've been thinking again and can't seem to sort this all out. i think we are friends. and i know friends go through busier and less busy times of life (unless you are my psycho busy friend whose life never slows down, which you aren't b/c that friend has no time for blog reading). anyway. so, you've pulled away, or so it seems. you say you are busy, have to work, need to go grocery shopping... yes, i know. i need to do those things too. but i'll find time for you. guess thats one of our differences. and its ok. really. but what makes people friends. i keep coming back to something a friend said years ago, they said you have to have common interests, if you don't have common interests than there is no point in being friends. so i try to find common interests. its probably dumb. and yes recently i was questioned on this standard. but it kindof makes sense. without common interests why would we be friends. what would bring us together. so yes, we do have a few common interests. but is that enough. should i expend much energy on this friendship. we used to enjoy each others company. but i am tired of looking back too far. i find you very guarded in most areas of your heart. you seem broken often. i used to think i could help fix you. i can't and i don't think i am suppose to do that. its not my role in your life. but i feel some kind of battle with you. you want me to know you but at the same time you don't want me to. i guess i do that too in my life with certain friends. i want you to be happy. to be well. i'd like to be your friend. guess i just need to be patient and wait. i'll just eat another meal out of a box. its ok. i wish you well.