me

I am still in my introspective semi-mellow mood. I think part of it is I am working on my self-evaluation at work. That can definitely put you in a “think about myself and figure out what’s wrong with me” mood. So yep, been thinking about me, my vision, my life direction, who am I, and the normal – “am I single b/c I have a brain tumor and going to die next week” concern. Ok, so the brain tumor is not a “normal” concern, but a concern none the less and I really need to get my will in order and make sure someone knows who my mortgage is with – Monument Mortgage in case you want to know.

So, back to vision. I read a good article this morning on Relevant (http://www.relevantmagazine.com/life_article.php?id=7416) about Working While you Wait. Its main points were that many of us are working at jobs we don’t love and that we don’t feel we have “arrived” life-wise. I can sure relate to that. I like my job but its not in photography or design, I am not a mom yet, I am not even married. I am not doing exactly what I want with my life. Yes, I know this sounds like I am just talking about me, my desires, and wants and I haven’t mentioned God yet – well, sorry to disappoint you but I don’t think I’ll mention Him here expect to say, God has a plan for my life, I desire to serve and glorify him, and I think that my life as He has it planned includes my wants, desires, and job. So, yes, the article. It talks about living now. Get involved in stuff you like, take a class, live in your evenings, make want you want to do actually happen and become your identity, minister with your passions. And don’t forget to pray. Yep, you should read the article. Good stuff.

I was talking to Rudy and Renee last week (at two different times about two different subjects) and they both started talking about how I needed to find my vision, purpose, make some life goals, and get on with it. They were gentler than all that but that was the gist. I really do need those two to kick me sometimes. So, what am I going to do about it? Well, I don’t know yet but a plan is forming. And yep, God needs to be involved in this “plan forming” as I am going to have to stop believing some of the lies I believe about Him and me. Yep.