I fear I am a nerd.

The midterm that I didn't study for and ate ice cream instead... I got a 97.
Holy Cows indeed.

Hi

I am enjoying the new (and slightly older) jon foreman CD's. (are they really CD's if you download them on itunes)

When Thomas quotes someone he usually uses this funny little high voice even if the person he's quoting is a guy. I find it amusing.

ok. I am now going to bed.

So...

** the post that WAS here has been taken down due to its negative nature.**

ps. i reclined on the couch and watched the game alone friday.

5 comments today.

1. Occasionally I’ll be sitting in my room and I hear something that sounds like a large cat falling off my roof. Not sure what that’s about.
2. I always pass this car at the end of my street and always thought it said “scorpion killer” across the back. I thought, that’s so not bad ass but I bet the guy thinks he is. But it really just says “Scion of Killeen” – now thats SO not bad ass.
3. I finally picked a color to paint my room. Now I just have to do it.
4. I can’t say “Ferrero Rocher” – one of my favorite candies. So I’ve resorted to calling them “gold balls.” Most people seem to know what I am talking about.
5. Until 2pm yesterday I thought my midterm today was open book. Its not. But I figured if I don’t know the stuff than I don’t know it, so I didn’t study. I ate ice cream instead.

Sophie & Sawyer

A few shots from a shoot with Sophie and her newborn brother Sawyer. They are both too cute. This is the 3rd shoot I've had with their family so it's been fun watching the family grow.

Evan

A few pics from a recent shoot with Evan.

smiley.
just playing in the grass looking cute
doing a one handed push-up. He has a ball in one hand but was moving so fast I couldn't get back far enough fast enough to get it all in the shot. 
now that's some hair! and a little lip too. :0)~ We were practicing saying "ball." He can kindof say it.
He got tired crawling around and decided to strike a couple poses for me.
another of his "I am too cute" poses. 
a close-up just before bathtime. Now those are some blue eyes. Yeah for good window light.

Josh

Today I could have written how great the concert I went to last night was down at the Parrish. But I can’t write about that b/c I couldn’t get in. It was a SXSW thing and they were only letting badge holders in. There were a bunch of bands playing but I was mainly going for Josh Radin (I learned it is pronounced with a long “a” and not a short “a” like I’ve been pronouncing it). Ingrid Michaelson, Cary Brothers, and Sara Bareilles were also playing and I think they are groovy. But maybe its for the best that I didn’t get in b/c that would have meant I would have been out til 1 or 2am on a school night. I was really tired last night as it was and had debating trying to go downtown anyway but thought I better try b/c those bands don’t come around much. Oh well. I did have a nice little walk from the capitol to 6th street and back. I saw lots of skinny jeans. They just don’t look too comfortable. Especially on the boys. I learned from one of my rockstar friends recently that some guys wear girl jeans to get the skinny look and some wear boy skinny jeans. I saw a guy in a skirt too but its Austin so it didn’t seem weird. Oh, back to Josh. I did get to hear him do a little 30 minute live thing on 94.7 yesterday so that was groovy. So, after the little downtown walk I headed home and Liz came over to work on a project. She needed my printer. Which I was very proud of my printer. It just hooked into her little Mac and worked just fine with no drivers or anything. Ofcourse that might have been her cool Mac and not my cool printer but whatever. I am glad its Friday.

Initiation

Lately I've been thinking and working though some stuff. Searching for some root issues and figuring out who I am and why certain stuff bugs me so much. One of the things I am sorting though is initiation. I like making plans with my friends. I enjoy spending time with them. I like small groups. I like one on one time with those close to me. I know my friends like me. But I let fear seep in and am often battling the fear that I am not valued by them. And the main thing that makes me feel unvalued and unimportant is initiation. I am almost always the initiator. At times I try to wait and let others initiate with me. That doesn't usually work out too well. I know people are busy. I can get busy at times too. The last few months I've had conservations with the boys and have asked about initiation. They have told me that it doesn't occur to them to initiate. They are so busy and people initiate with them so much that they don't have to. They always have something going on and someone to do stuff with. So I guess that clears up that with them. I was thinking more about that and thought, you know, if they were interested in a girl, I bet they'd initiate and find time to spend with her. I bet she'd be important to them. I bet she'd occupy alot of their thoughts. They'd plan time with her. Then I thought, (this is the breakthough and the exciting part), Michele, you are pretty groovy and one day a guy might like you and he'll want to initiate with you. You will be important to him. You will be on his mind. He'll look forward to calling you. He'll want to spend time with you. Ofcourse this all kindof freaks me out too, what if I am not interested in him! Well, I guess we'll deal with that when that happens. But for now its nice knowing someone might initiate with me one day.

Funny story about that. A couple years ago I was emailing back and forth with a guy for about a month. Then he asked me out to dinner. So I went (I am not one to turn down dinner :0) He asked for my number and then he called every night for a week. Honestly that was a little too much initiation. Then at the end of the week he gave me the little speech, its not you it's me... blah, blah. And I never heard from him again. But don't get too sad. I really wasn't that interested in him either. Our interests didn't really click. But anyway. Was nice to have someone initiate.

So, yep. Initiation is important to me but I am trying to not really worry about it. I know my friends like me. I know they value me. They just don't think to initiate. Now, some of my friends do initiate. Like just this last weekend Renee called me. yeah.

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in random news today I saw Michael Phelps - you know the swimmer that won a bunch of gold medals last Olympics - swim in a meet over at the UT Swim Center today. I was there photographing the staff for a work project and he swam in one of the heats. 200 mens something or another I think. The boy is fast and very muscle-y and tall.

Be Nice.

I've been thinking about all kinds of stuff lately, politics, socialism, animal cruelty, social justice, the poor, marriage, work, my attitude, music, sickness, vaccinations, homeschooling, ...
I think my brain might explode. ack.

So today I was reading an article on a study that found that alcohol doesn't make you forget bad memories but cements them into your brain. The study was done on mice, giving them a stock before putting them in their cage and they would curl up in fear and pain. Then on some they shocked them , gave them alcohol, and put them in their cage. Those with the alcohol stayed in their curled up fear/pained position for longer. My heart just hurt reading the article. I know they are "just" mice but why would people torture them like that for what I would consider a really stupid study. I know this might be naive but why do we still have to use animals to do testing on anyway? Isn't there another "nice" way to do testing. And don't we already know alot about what works and what doesn't in most everything. No need smearing shampoo in rabbits eyes and blinding them. No need to shock mice to see what happens. No need to torture animals needlessly. There just seems there has to be a better way. That's just my two cents for today.

Yes, its the primaries today. I have nothing to say about that right now.

huh?

I was sitting with a computer guy at work as he was trying to troubleshoot a computer problem for me. And he couldn't get the computer to connect to the server so he calls another computer guy. The side of the conversation I heard was:

computer guy: ok, so its wack wack hr server wack hrs. (pause) that doesn't work. maybe its wack wack hr ...

I was thinking, oh my, who/what is getting wacked. Then I realized wack wack is "\\" oh, now I get it. Computer speak is so weird sometimes. Then again hr speak is pretty weird sometimes, "so we need to work with TRECS on the LMS with PDC before going to MSI."