Embracing Depression
Read this blog today by a photographer I follow. The 1st paragraph especially, I think she wrote from inside my head.
http://anneruthmann.blogspot.com.au/2012/02/gratitude-journal-7-embracing.html
the whole "feeling not right" can be so frustrating. I am slowly understanding that feelings are not always logical and I honestly hate that and want to put everything in their little boxes and have nothing "irrational or illogical" b/c I view a lot of my world as black and white. It's right or wrong. And I think I should be able to fix everything involving myself if I am "off." I fight the "such and such happened and my reaction was X and that doesn't seem to match the situation in my mind and is therefore illogical/wrong." I am working on correctly that line of thought and praying that God will correct it as I guess that's really what will have to happen. Sometimes it feels like He made me broken but then I remember He did that for a purpose. (yes, the theology of that statement is probably off) I like me better when I am happy though.
http://anneruthmann.blogspot.com.au/2012/02/gratitude-journal-7-embracing.html
the whole "feeling not right" can be so frustrating. I am slowly understanding that feelings are not always logical and I honestly hate that and want to put everything in their little boxes and have nothing "irrational or illogical" b/c I view a lot of my world as black and white. It's right or wrong. And I think I should be able to fix everything involving myself if I am "off." I fight the "such and such happened and my reaction was X and that doesn't seem to match the situation in my mind and is therefore illogical/wrong." I am working on correctly that line of thought and praying that God will correct it as I guess that's really what will have to happen. Sometimes it feels like He made me broken but then I remember He did that for a purpose. (yes, the theology of that statement is probably off) I like me better when I am happy though.
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posted by michele @ 2:08 PM
2 Comments:
At Tuesday, February 28, 2012 12:22:00 PM ,
Thomas Q Brady said...
I would say the theology of that statement is hugely complicated and has been debated for millennia, but not that it’s “off.”
At Sunday, March 04, 2012 7:50:00 PM ,
Karina said...
Thanks for sharing so openly, Michele. I can relate to the "off" feeling, and I think a lot of people experience these seasons of depression that you and the other blogger described. Press into the Lord; He will hold you up. Isaiah 41:10 has encouraged me through many bleak seasons.
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